I love you like a lot

If I counted correctly, we had at least nine conversations in the last 15 months, including tonight, about our relationship status.

I started thinking about it too much again. So, I brought it up again. I kind of thought it’d be a quick conversation, that he’d agree, but it took him too long to think about.

Tonight was a follow-up. We negotiated back and forth. I’m going to miss him a lot. So much. But that’s life.

The sad truth is I know at least for the moment, it’s for the better for both of us. I would be with him still if it could work, but I do know that the hours I spend with him I need to grow.

I don’t know.

Locked up inside my heart. / I just want you to love me.